Monday, July 29, 2013

Unbearable My First Birthday Without Parents

How I can feel like an adult orphan sounds as strange as it feels but it has made me feel more serious than
 happy about getting older.  I feel full of opposites, a bundle of feelings ready to burst and with and without words, very empty and disconnected and yet very present, hurt and accepting, solid and peaceful and yet a shadow of anx crowding me, ready to take over.   I feel mostly reflective on my life, its lessons and the great job my parents did with so few tools.  Bless God and all who have crossed my path and helped make me who I am today- THANK YOU.  I hope this next year is blessed with everything I need to be the person I am meant to be!